新年快乐

2010年1月1号，
写起来很美的一个日子，
我的心情却美不起来~:(

大家都说新年快乐，
可是我却不快乐，
反而想哭~T.T

是啊！
从昨晚到现在，
我都不是真正的快乐~

2009年在一片喧哗声中结束了，
没什么特别，
就像平时一样，
完全没有跨年的感觉~

过后，
去游车河，
比困在室内好，
不过，
心情还是一样闷闷的，
因为望着一路上的街景，
是我习惯性的伤感~

或许，
回家我会快乐些~

姐妹们，
想念你们啊！
还有我的家、
我的家人、
真的，
很想念你们。。

有你们在身边，
也许，
我不会那么难过，
不会睡了八小时还是累，
不会起来后的三个小时都只对着电脑，
不会脑袋一片空白的只想着不该想的，
现在真有想回家的冲动~

新一年的第一天，
我以这样的心情度过，
希望未来的364天都是相反的。。
新年新希望，
我希望我爱的人都健康快乐，
我希望我不会再因爱而难过，
我希望自己不会那么的想爱，
我希望自己一个人活得自在~

突然，
不想往前走，
只想回到过去，
回到无忧无虑的小时候，
一整天上课补习课外活动都不觉得累，
每天早起都不会赖床，
不会因为爱而哭泣，
不会知道爱那么伤，
不会知道自己那么脆弱~

选择，
在这里开始2010年的第一篇blog，
没有确切的理由，
就只是想，
所以，
写了~

突然好想你。。

突然好想你。。

真的，

就突然间好想你。。

没告诉你，

没勇气告诉你，

不知道如何告诉你。。

就写在这吧！

就算你看到，

你也不知道是你，

我也不会告诉你是你。。

can I just ignore it?

dun bother it..

and have a happy and fun x'mas..

人为什么不能简单点？

为何要有那么多的情绪？

简简单单，

开开心心，

没有所谓得不开心与愤怒。。

不就很好吗？

一瞬间。。

很多事情就这样发生了...在那一瞬间。。
刚刚看了朋友的部落格~眼泪需要多少时间掉下?
看完后，我掉泪了...就在那一瞬间。。
也许在感情方面我比较感性..不论亲情，爱情或友情。。
也不知何时开始我好像每个月会定时掉泪一次或更多。。
每隔一段时期就会有想掉泪的感觉。。
而每每看了感触良多的文章、甚至是一句话。。
还有唱k过后，都会想写写部落格。。
抒发下情感。。

就在那一瞬间，我掉泪了。。
在那瞬间，我的心漂走了。。
在那瞬间，我又想起一些不该想的。。
在那瞬间，我又期待着一些不可能的事。。
所有的一切就在那瞬间发生了。。

而这瞬间，我又想哭了。。

Moody Period

Long time no write blog here..bcoz b4 dat dun hav internet access in house (kl)..
When online, mood to write blog gone ady..hehe..
Today moody period again..maybe too long no back home liao..haiz..
That's why i dun like to stay at home(kl) during weekend..
Almost everytime i stay at home during weekend, i easy to get bad mood..
Some small matters would make me unhappy..
Moreover, the hot weather make my mood getting bad and bad..
And, if i at hometown, during weekend i ll play mahjong or hang out with friends or even do nothing at home, i oso feel enjoy~~
So, i prefer weekdays in KL..although need to go for class, but i can meet my fren~ yum cha, play mahjong, cheong k, watch movie, gossip, etc..
Tomolo weekdays again, hope i ll be happy..
After written this blog, my bad mood will be released..haha..
cheer up^^

New Life...

Start from 1st May, I had stayed in my new house with my new housemates and roommate..actually my new roommate is my old housemate, and my new housemate is my old roommate and old classmates..so it is easy for me to suit in my new house..

However, it really be a new life for me in college...
no more dac5..now i'm ama1;
no more dkc and dkd...now is dkx, dkz and dk7;
no more 300++ coursemates...now only 60++...
many things different, and i need to make new frens and take time to close wif them..Have attend 4 days lecture, got talked to few coursemates, but i still choose to sit alone in lec..dun know why..maybe jz think to be ''freedom'' for 1st week..haha..next week will start finding frens in tutorial class..or else i ll be alone during break time..hehe..

Jz now having knew a good news for my fren..happy+sad..
happy bcoz my fren is happy, sad bcoz our distance will become farther..
maybe it is the time for me to forget part of memory wif my fren..
maybe it is the time for me to get a new life without some unachievable dream..

That is a new road, new life i choosed..
Maybe it will be difficult and lots of problem may exist..
But i'm here ready to face it..
Come on, my new life!!
i'm waiting for u..

等待。。。

夏日的某天
突然想恋爱了
渴望被爱的呵护
渴望有个肩膀依靠

电视画面里幸福的吻
虚构得很真实
享受了两年的单身生活
突然想告别了

沉默已久的那一首歌
再次响起了
呼唤着过往的画面
是否意味着什么

看过听过经历过
失败中学习成长
知道爱和付出成正比
现在的我会更懂爱了

从前的他和他和他
停在回忆里了吗
看透结果的最先放下了
从未开始的却还留着遗憾

以后的那个他
会是哪个谁
我爱的和爱我的
希望中间是个等号

等待那奇妙的感觉
等待幸福的拥抱
等待着缘份
等待着谁

Daymare

U know wat is daymare?
Actually i no sure got this word or not..
Jz think dat teribble dream happened in 9 called nightmare,
so happened in day called daymare gua..
Before that, tell u a scary experience..
Today, when i went to toilet, I met 5 enemies..
This is the 1st time I met them in same time at my house..so geli..
At 1st, I tot it was a big,brown clr butterfly..
when i see clearly..OMG..3 of them stick tgt, and other 2 (I think is 2 lah coz too rush liao, so no sure, hehe..) below them..
Luckily they not block the exit, so I still got way to run..haha..
Dun think my house is dirty ya..my house very clean d..
Jz know dat they maybe have a house in toilet bowl there but dun know why they come out tgt..
Now come back to the point..the daymare..
Last Sunday I wake up abt 11am,
it is earlier than usual..(if u know me well, u ll know usually wat time i wake up)
coz i have a daymare, after I awake, I cant sleep back,
so I wake up and do somethings to stop thinking it..
The dream make me worry and scare..
This tuesday I have another daymare again..
I tot I jz cry in the dream,
but when i wake up, my tear still on my face..
That dream make me become worrier and worrier and think to go back hometown sooner..
So dat day evening I go back hometown and reach home abt 9pm..
Thankfully, nothing happen..
All stay healthy and happy^^
God, plz bless us healthy,safe and happy oways..
Dun let the dream become reality,
I not strong at all to face it in reality..
God bless us, thanks..