真的，
就突然间好想你。。
没告诉你，
没勇气告诉你，
不知道如何告诉你。。
就写在这吧！
就算你看到，
你也不知道是你，
我也不会告诉你是你。。
can I just ignore it?
dun bother it..
and have a happy and fun x'mas..
人为什么不能简单点？
为何要有那么多的情绪？
简简单单，
开开心心，
没有所谓得不开心与愤怒。。
不就很好吗？
Tuesday 22 December 2009
Tuesday 15 September 2009
一瞬间。。
很多事情就这样发生了...在那一瞬间。。
刚刚看了朋友的部落格~眼泪需要多少时间掉下?
看完后，我掉泪了...就在那一瞬间。。
也许在感情方面我比较感性..不论亲情，爱情或友情。。
也不知何时开始我好像每个月会定时掉泪一次或更多。。
每隔一段时期就会有想掉泪的感觉。。
而每每看了感触良多的文章、甚至是一句话。。
还有唱k过后，都会想写写部落格。。
抒发下情感。。
就在那一瞬间，我掉泪了。。
在那瞬间，我的心漂走了。。
在那瞬间，我又想起一些不该想的。。
在那瞬间，我又期待着一些不可能的事。。
所有的一切就在那瞬间发生了。。
而这瞬间，我又想哭了。。
刚刚看了朋友的部落格~眼泪需要多少时间掉下?
看完后，我掉泪了...就在那一瞬间。。
也许在感情方面我比较感性..不论亲情，爱情或友情。。
也不知何时开始我好像每个月会定时掉泪一次或更多。。
每隔一段时期就会有想掉泪的感觉。。
而每每看了感触良多的文章、甚至是一句话。。
还有唱k过后，都会想写写部落格。。
抒发下情感。。
就在那一瞬间，我掉泪了。。
在那瞬间，我的心漂走了。。
在那瞬间，我又想起一些不该想的。。
在那瞬间，我又期待着一些不可能的事。。
所有的一切就在那瞬间发生了。。
而这瞬间，我又想哭了。。
Monday 10 August 2009
Moody Period
Long time no write blog here..bcoz b4 dat dun hav internet access in house (kl)..
When online, mood to write blog gone ady..hehe..
Today moody period again..maybe too long no back home liao..haiz..
That's why i dun like to stay at home(kl) during weekend..
Almost everytime i stay at home during weekend, i easy to get bad mood..
Some small matters would make me unhappy..
Moreover, the hot weather make my mood getting bad and bad..
And, if i at hometown, during weekend i ll play mahjong or hang out with friends or even do nothing at home, i oso feel enjoy~~
So, i prefer weekdays in KL..although need to go for class, but i can meet my fren~ yum cha, play mahjong, cheong k, watch movie, gossip, etc..
Tomolo weekdays again, hope i ll be happy..
After written this blog, my bad mood will be released..haha..
cheer up^^
When online, mood to write blog gone ady..hehe..
Today moody period again..maybe too long no back home liao..haiz..
That's why i dun like to stay at home(kl) during weekend..
Almost everytime i stay at home during weekend, i easy to get bad mood..
Some small matters would make me unhappy..
Moreover, the hot weather make my mood getting bad and bad..
And, if i at hometown, during weekend i ll play mahjong or hang out with friends or even do nothing at home, i oso feel enjoy~~
So, i prefer weekdays in KL..although need to go for class, but i can meet my fren~ yum cha, play mahjong, cheong k, watch movie, gossip, etc..
Tomolo weekdays again, hope i ll be happy..
After written this blog, my bad mood will be released..haha..
cheer up^^
Saturday 30 May 2009
New Life...
Start from 1st May, I had stayed in my new house with my new housemates and roommate..actually my new roommate is my old housemate, and my new housemate is my old roommate and old classmates..so it is easy for me to suit in my new house..
However, it really be a new life for me in college...
no more dac5..now i'm ama1;
no more dkc and dkd...now is dkx, dkz and dk7;
no more 300++ coursemates...now only 60++...
many things different, and i need to make new frens and take time to close wif them..Have attend 4 days lecture, got talked to few coursemates, but i still choose to sit alone in lec..dun know why..maybe jz think to be ''freedom'' for 1st week..haha..next week will start finding frens in tutorial class..or else i ll be alone during break time..hehe..
Jz now having knew a good news for my fren..happy+sad..
happy bcoz my fren is happy, sad bcoz our distance will become farther..
maybe it is the time for me to forget part of memory wif my fren..
maybe it is the time for me to get a new life without some unachievable dream..
That is a new road, new life i choosed..
Maybe it will be difficult and lots of problem may exist..
But i'm here ready to face it..
Come on, my new life!!
i'm waiting for u..
However, it really be a new life for me in college...
no more dac5..now i'm ama1;
no more dkc and dkd...now is dkx, dkz and dk7;
no more 300++ coursemates...now only 60++...
many things different, and i need to make new frens and take time to close wif them..Have attend 4 days lecture, got talked to few coursemates, but i still choose to sit alone in lec..dun know why..maybe jz think to be ''freedom'' for 1st week..haha..next week will start finding frens in tutorial class..or else i ll be alone during break time..hehe..
Jz now having knew a good news for my fren..happy+sad..
happy bcoz my fren is happy, sad bcoz our distance will become farther..
maybe it is the time for me to forget part of memory wif my fren..
maybe it is the time for me to get a new life without some unachievable dream..
That is a new road, new life i choosed..
Maybe it will be difficult and lots of problem may exist..
But i'm here ready to face it..
Come on, my new life!!
i'm waiting for u..
Wednesday 20 May 2009
等待。。。
夏日的某天
突然想恋爱了
渴望被爱的呵护
渴望有个肩膀依靠
电视画面里幸福的吻
虚构得很真实
享受了两年的单身生活
突然想告别了
沉默已久的那一首歌
再次响起了
呼唤着过往的画面
是否意味着什么
看过听过经历过
失败中学习成长
知道爱和付出成正比
现在的我会更懂爱了
从前的他和他和他
停在回忆里了吗
看透结果的最先放下了
从未开始的却还留着遗憾
以后的那个他
会是哪个谁
我爱的和爱我的
希望中间是个等号
等待那奇妙的感觉
等待幸福的拥抱
等待着缘份
等待着谁
突然想恋爱了
渴望被爱的呵护
渴望有个肩膀依靠
电视画面里幸福的吻
虚构得很真实
享受了两年的单身生活
突然想告别了
沉默已久的那一首歌
再次响起了
呼唤着过往的画面
是否意味着什么
看过听过经历过
失败中学习成长
知道爱和付出成正比
现在的我会更懂爱了
从前的他和他和他
停在回忆里了吗
看透结果的最先放下了
从未开始的却还留着遗憾
以后的那个他
会是哪个谁
我爱的和爱我的
希望中间是个等号
等待那奇妙的感觉
等待幸福的拥抱
等待着缘份
等待着谁
Friday 24 April 2009
Daymare
U know wat is daymare?
Actually i no sure got this word or not..
Jz think dat teribble dream happened in 9 called nightmare,
so happened in day called daymare gua..
Before that, tell u a scary experience..
Today, when i went to toilet, I met 5 enemies..
This is the 1st time I met them in same time at my house..so geli..
At 1st, I tot it was a big,brown clr butterfly..
when i see clearly..OMG..3 of them stick tgt, and other 2 (I think is 2 lah coz too rush liao, so no sure, hehe..) below them..
Luckily they not block the exit, so I still got way to run..haha..
Dun think my house is dirty ya..my house very clean d..
Jz know dat they maybe have a house in toilet bowl there but dun know why they come out tgt..
Now come back to the point..the daymare..
Last Sunday I wake up abt 11am,
it is earlier than usual..(if u know me well, u ll know usually wat time i wake up)
coz i have a daymare, after I awake, I cant sleep back,
so I wake up and do somethings to stop thinking it..
The dream make me worry and scare..
This tuesday I have another daymare again..
I tot I jz cry in the dream,
but when i wake up, my tear still on my face..
That dream make me become worrier and worrier and think to go back hometown sooner..
So dat day evening I go back hometown and reach home abt 9pm..
Thankfully, nothing happen..
All stay healthy and happy^^
God, plz bless us healthy,safe and happy oways..
Dun let the dream become reality,
I not strong at all to face it in reality..
God bless us, thanks..
Actually i no sure got this word or not..
Jz think dat teribble dream happened in 9 called nightmare,
so happened in day called daymare gua..
Before that, tell u a scary experience..
Today, when i went to toilet, I met 5 enemies..
This is the 1st time I met them in same time at my house..so geli..
At 1st, I tot it was a big,brown clr butterfly..
when i see clearly..OMG..3 of them stick tgt, and other 2 (I think is 2 lah coz too rush liao, so no sure, hehe..) below them..
Luckily they not block the exit, so I still got way to run..haha..
Dun think my house is dirty ya..my house very clean d..
Jz know dat they maybe have a house in toilet bowl there but dun know why they come out tgt..
Now come back to the point..the daymare..
Last Sunday I wake up abt 11am,
it is earlier than usual..(if u know me well, u ll know usually wat time i wake up)
coz i have a daymare, after I awake, I cant sleep back,
so I wake up and do somethings to stop thinking it..
The dream make me worry and scare..
This tuesday I have another daymare again..
I tot I jz cry in the dream,
but when i wake up, my tear still on my face..
That dream make me become worrier and worrier and think to go back hometown sooner..
So dat day evening I go back hometown and reach home abt 9pm..
Thankfully, nothing happen..
All stay healthy and happy^^
God, plz bless us healthy,safe and happy oways..
Dun let the dream become reality,
I not strong at all to face it in reality..
God bless us, thanks..
Tuesday 21 April 2009
Undescribable Feeling..
Today is my 1st day working as a part-time promoter..
Unfortunately, is also the last day..
Maybe bcoz of lack experience, no much sales or maybe I had talk somethings wrong..
Anyways, the job is gone..
For me, it's ok..I dun care much..
Coz I dun need to wake up earlier,
dun need to stand for whole day anymore,
somemore can go back hometown earlier..
can meet my beloved family and friends soon..
and can watch my favourite artist's drama..
Although this benefits worth me around 600,
Lost many things I can gain from it..
but still ok, no much influnced me..
The most I care is I had affected others..
Feel very sorry to the person who intro me this job,
to my partner, and to whom related..
Really sorry abt it..
Now, I dun know how to describe my feeling exactly,
but sad is the largest part..
not bcoz of losing the job,
is bcoz I have affect others..
and bcoz I jz reading G5's latest blogs (abt the last day)..
Remind me again diploma is end, we have to separate..
Time has passing, I know I must look forward..
Sad but still need to accept it..
cheer up!! I know we ll rmb each other and keep in touch d..haha..
Btw, I will be go back hometown tomolo or the day after tomolo..
Sorry to my certain frens for no helping u to do the revising..
Wishes u all, all the best & good luck ^^
Sorry again to whom affected by me..no matter job or study..
Unfortunately, is also the last day..
Maybe bcoz of lack experience, no much sales or maybe I had talk somethings wrong..
Anyways, the job is gone..
For me, it's ok..I dun care much..
Coz I dun need to wake up earlier,
dun need to stand for whole day anymore,
somemore can go back hometown earlier..
can meet my beloved family and friends soon..
and can watch my favourite artist's drama..
Although this benefits worth me around 600,
Lost many things I can gain from it..
but still ok, no much influnced me..
The most I care is I had affected others..
Feel very sorry to the person who intro me this job,
to my partner, and to whom related..
Really sorry abt it..
Now, I dun know how to describe my feeling exactly,
but sad is the largest part..
not bcoz of losing the job,
is bcoz I have affect others..
and bcoz I jz reading G5's latest blogs (abt the last day)..
Remind me again diploma is end, we have to separate..
Time has passing, I know I must look forward..
Sad but still need to accept it..
cheer up!! I know we ll rmb each other and keep in touch d..haha..
Btw, I will be go back hometown tomolo or the day after tomolo..
Sorry to my certain frens for no helping u to do the revising..
Wishes u all, all the best & good luck ^^
Sorry again to whom affected by me..no matter job or study..
Sunday 19 April 2009
The last day in diploma life..
Today, the last day in diploma life..
After TI test, as usual we talk around and plan where to go..
Jusco? Times Square? After some times, we decide to go TS..
Before we go, we planned to eat our breakfast/lunch at canteen 1st,
so we decided to go canteen 1,
but at last we go canteen 2..
why? bcoz this is one of g5 style~~keep changing and changing and changing..haha..
so we stay at canteen abt one hour jz go TS..
We walked a while at Sg.wang jz rmb dat our destination is TS, so we move to TS..
When we reached TS, jz realized dat two of our members missing jor..
Why and when they missing?? Eh..now i still dun know..haha..
So we go Borders 1st to wait them..
Read a book there which talked abt beautiful beaches around the world,
Cherating~our graduate trip destination, was inside it..
No much pic and details, but after reading,
I may change my honeymoon place from Australia to Bora-Bora Island..
No yet have a bf ady thinking so much!! haha..
After we all gather back, and my pretend lover bought her book,
we move to another place..
Actually no idea where to go, so we jz walk round and see around,
till we find a bench and stop there..
That is the time we begin our gossips..hehe..
After some times, we think to change a place, so move to McD,
As dat time is lunch time, so McD is almost fully seated,
so some of us stand at different corners, watch and watch to seek for seats,
and I felt dat our situation liked ''bian yi jing cha'' waiting for ''xian yi fan''..haha..
Luckily no wait too long, we have find our seats,
then we continue to gossip and gossip and gossip,
till 4pm++, another fren come, we jz leave McD..
After that, we walked around and abt half an hour later,
we go Gasoline to continue our gossip,
dis time every person need to express their feeling abt each other,
coz din prepare b4 so some of them I not much describe, sorry abt dat..
and wat they comment abt me, I quite satisfied d..haha..
Jz wan to say dat my EQ not as high as wat u think..
Actually I quite moody d..
Abt 8pm, we jz stop gossip and go back,
while go back, i jz feel dat today is the last day in diploma life,
We looked very bu she de to say goodbye..
Ya..after today, we will only meet after three weeks, in graduate trip..
and after graduate trip, we will seldom meet..
Some of them i start to know in 1st year 2nd sem, some 3rd sem, and some even last sem..
felt regret to know u so late..haiz..
time past so fast till we seem dun have much time to gather..
Anyways, really happy to know abt u all^^
Today is the 1st time our big sister join us..
and is the day i talked most..
Bcoz of big sister? Or bcoz is the last day? Or bcoz today's topics is so interesting??
haha..dun know..
wat I know is I really really enjoy it !!!
Jz now watch our video which we took 8 months ago..
After watch, wat we do dat day become fresh in my mind again..
In dis two years diploma life, I have collected 2000++ photos and some videos,
quite a large amount for me, although no every pic got me lah! haha..
Dat is good for me to recall back much happy and funny moments in diploma life..
This blog quite details d, bcoz I know dat some day in future I may forget some small matters,
so better wrote it down now, so I can recall back..so sweet memory..
Wat ll be my feel dat time??
Maybe is happy + sad + miss u guys..
After TI test, as usual we talk around and plan where to go..
Jusco? Times Square? After some times, we decide to go TS..
Before we go, we planned to eat our breakfast/lunch at canteen 1st,
so we decided to go canteen 1,
but at last we go canteen 2..
why? bcoz this is one of g5 style~~keep changing and changing and changing..haha..
so we stay at canteen abt one hour jz go TS..
We walked a while at Sg.wang jz rmb dat our destination is TS, so we move to TS..
When we reached TS, jz realized dat two of our members missing jor..
Why and when they missing?? Eh..now i still dun know..haha..
So we go Borders 1st to wait them..
Read a book there which talked abt beautiful beaches around the world,
Cherating~our graduate trip destination, was inside it..
No much pic and details, but after reading,
I may change my honeymoon place from Australia to Bora-Bora Island..
No yet have a bf ady thinking so much!! haha..
After we all gather back, and my pretend lover bought her book,
we move to another place..
Actually no idea where to go, so we jz walk round and see around,
till we find a bench and stop there..
That is the time we begin our gossips..hehe..
After some times, we think to change a place, so move to McD,
As dat time is lunch time, so McD is almost fully seated,
so some of us stand at different corners, watch and watch to seek for seats,
and I felt dat our situation liked ''bian yi jing cha'' waiting for ''xian yi fan''..haha..
Luckily no wait too long, we have find our seats,
then we continue to gossip and gossip and gossip,
till 4pm++, another fren come, we jz leave McD..
After that, we walked around and abt half an hour later,
we go Gasoline to continue our gossip,
dis time every person need to express their feeling abt each other,
coz din prepare b4 so some of them I not much describe, sorry abt dat..
and wat they comment abt me, I quite satisfied d..haha..
Jz wan to say dat my EQ not as high as wat u think..
Actually I quite moody d..
Abt 8pm, we jz stop gossip and go back,
while go back, i jz feel dat today is the last day in diploma life,
We looked very bu she de to say goodbye..
Ya..after today, we will only meet after three weeks, in graduate trip..
and after graduate trip, we will seldom meet..
Some of them i start to know in 1st year 2nd sem, some 3rd sem, and some even last sem..
felt regret to know u so late..haiz..
time past so fast till we seem dun have much time to gather..
Anyways, really happy to know abt u all^^
Today is the 1st time our big sister join us..
and is the day i talked most..
Bcoz of big sister? Or bcoz is the last day? Or bcoz today's topics is so interesting??
haha..dun know..
wat I know is I really really enjoy it !!!
Jz now watch our video which we took 8 months ago..
After watch, wat we do dat day become fresh in my mind again..
In dis two years diploma life, I have collected 2000++ photos and some videos,
quite a large amount for me, although no every pic got me lah! haha..
Dat is good for me to recall back much happy and funny moments in diploma life..
This blog quite details d, bcoz I know dat some day in future I may forget some small matters,
so better wrote it down now, so I can recall back..so sweet memory..
Wat ll be my feel dat time??
Maybe is happy + sad + miss u guys..
Monday 23 March 2009
长大了。。。
二十岁了，再过五个月又六天，
年龄那一栏还是习惯写着十八，
不是不认老，
而是时间快得让我忘了十八十九岁已经过了...
长大了，烦恼跟着越来越多了，
怀念无忧无虑的童年，
但，路还是要走，人总得往前看...
长大了，能够参与大人的话题了，
自己的意见被肯定了，
很多事也能自己决定了，
但，有时还是需要家人和朋友的意见...
长大了，该谈恋爱了？
这可不一定..
身边有伴的朋友想念单身的自由；
单身的朋友想找人陪；
我呢？顺其自然吧！
现在的我，有家人和朋友已经很快乐了！
长大了，该为未来打算了，
该读什么科？要做什么工？
也许现在想的不是最终的选择，
但，还是得想一想...
长大了，真的长大了。。
年龄那一栏还是习惯写着十八，
不是不认老，
而是时间快得让我忘了十八十九岁已经过了...
长大了，烦恼跟着越来越多了，
怀念无忧无虑的童年，
但，路还是要走，人总得往前看...
长大了，能够参与大人的话题了，
自己的意见被肯定了，
很多事也能自己决定了，
但，有时还是需要家人和朋友的意见...
长大了，该谈恋爱了？
这可不一定..
身边有伴的朋友想念单身的自由；
单身的朋友想找人陪；
我呢？顺其自然吧！
现在的我，有家人和朋友已经很快乐了！
长大了，该为未来打算了，
该读什么科？要做什么工？
也许现在想的不是最终的选择，
但，还是得想一想...
长大了，真的长大了。。
Sunday 15 March 2009
原来...我...
原来...我是那么容易举棋不定的...
明明决定好的，又轻易被人影响了...
资料看了、签求过了、告诉自己是那个了，现在却又乱了...
原本的AMA，来了AAC和Degree，
不知道过几天AFA会不会也来插一脚...
原来...我是那么经不起累的...
开学第一星期有点小病，又参与一连串的活动，真的累坏了...
想好好享受和大家在一起的每一刻，
但有时真的只想静静地...
才发现睡眠对我来说是那么重要的，
睡眠不足，心情也变得奈闷了...
不知道你们有没有察觉...
直到昨天才真正的休息够了，
元气应该恢复了吧！
原来...我是那么喜欢自寻烦恼的...
没有烦恼是多么轻松啊！
可是当我静静一人时，烦恼就来了...
亲情、爱情、友情、学业、金钱，连要不要回家都烦...
不管该不该烦的，都是自找的，haiz...
也许我的脑不能忍受片刻宁静吧！
原来...我是那么懒惰的...
其实这个缺点很早之前就懂了...
懒得理、懒得讲话、下雨天懒得拿雨伞，懒得什么都不想做...
有时觉得其实也没什么，
我就只是不想做、不想违背自己的心...哈哈...
原来...我一直在学习着了解自己...
明明决定好的，又轻易被人影响了...
资料看了、签求过了、告诉自己是那个了，现在却又乱了...
原本的AMA，来了AAC和Degree，
不知道过几天AFA会不会也来插一脚...
原来...我是那么经不起累的...
开学第一星期有点小病，又参与一连串的活动，真的累坏了...
想好好享受和大家在一起的每一刻，
但有时真的只想静静地...
才发现睡眠对我来说是那么重要的，
睡眠不足，心情也变得奈闷了...
不知道你们有没有察觉...
直到昨天才真正的休息够了，
元气应该恢复了吧！
原来...我是那么喜欢自寻烦恼的...
没有烦恼是多么轻松啊！
可是当我静静一人时，烦恼就来了...
亲情、爱情、友情、学业、金钱，连要不要回家都烦...
不管该不该烦的，都是自找的，haiz...
也许我的脑不能忍受片刻宁静吧！
原来...我是那么懒惰的...
其实这个缺点很早之前就懂了...
懒得理、懒得讲话、下雨天懒得拿雨伞，懒得什么都不想做...
有时觉得其实也没什么，
我就只是不想做、不想违背自己的心...哈哈...
原来...我一直在学习着了解自己...
Saturday 7 February 2009
他和她的故事。。。
他认了，两个月之后；
爱的圈里多了另一个她，她该退出了；
天空瞬间灰暗了，雨和泪与分不清。
一个人的情人节，回忆里的两个人；
六年情散了，婚姻无效了；
关系那一栏从此空白着。
一个月后的她微笑了，佛，教会她的；
平静的心，痛苦结束了。
学习鱼儿追求着自由；
未来，会是美好的！
爱的圈里多了另一个她，她该退出了；
天空瞬间灰暗了，雨和泪与分不清。
一个人的情人节，回忆里的两个人；
六年情散了，婚姻无效了；
关系那一栏从此空白着。
一个月后的她微笑了，佛，教会她的；
平静的心，痛苦结束了。
学习鱼儿追求着自由；
未来，会是美好的！
Friday 6 February 2009
my current feel..
Yesterday finish my last paper liao..actually no much feel after exam..jz can keep my notes in box ady..haha..
Pass this exam can consider graduate diploma liao bcoz next sem is full coursework..
But I still no yet decide what should do after graduate..too many choice liao..
Now still cny but no more feel ady..
Since i go back from hometown this Monday, i feel very tired, especially when facing my notes..
sleep a lot but still feel tired..luckily know how to do my exam..haha
4am now, tomolo need to wake up early to gather wif my beloved classmates..
got a bit tired now but dun know why still dun wan shut down the pc..haha..
Nothing special in this blog, jz nothing to do here..
Hope everyone enjoy the gathering..
secret recipe, bowling...i am coming..haha..
time to sleep liao or else tomolo ll be very tired..
have a nice day^^
Pass this exam can consider graduate diploma liao bcoz next sem is full coursework..
But I still no yet decide what should do after graduate..too many choice liao..
Now still cny but no more feel ady..
Since i go back from hometown this Monday, i feel very tired, especially when facing my notes..
sleep a lot but still feel tired..luckily know how to do my exam..haha
4am now, tomolo need to wake up early to gather wif my beloved classmates..
got a bit tired now but dun know why still dun wan shut down the pc..haha..
Nothing special in this blog, jz nothing to do here..
Hope everyone enjoy the gathering..
secret recipe, bowling...i am coming..haha..
time to sleep liao or else tomolo ll be very tired..
have a nice day^^
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